Thursday, 1 March 2012

A great loss


After a great day of working out and finding a song that I had been searching for on YouTube for some time, I came across the saddest news on my answering machine.

I found out that my uncle who lives overseas had passed away over the weekend. This literally made me stand still. I hadn’t eaten at all the entire day and my starvation went away automatically. I felt frozen in time and after alerting my family I broke down in tears. That’s all I’ve been doing since the call.

I get waves of sadness where I think of growing up with him. Shared birthdays, laughs and how alike we were. It saddens me greatly that I will not see him again or hear his voice.

I feel a little more alone in this world as my close blood relatives has now been reduced to two people, my mum and my grandmother. I know that we will all leave this world at some point but I am feeling a little bit more alone in life.

4 comments:

  1. Losing someone close to you is such a very difficult and dreaded part of life. My heart goes out to you as you learn to grieve appropriately and learn to adjust to your new reality. You'll make it - and you'll learn some valuable lessons about yourself in the process. Godspeed!

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    1. Thank you for your lovely comment Melody. I've been through this process quite a few times before but it's always harder when it's someone closer to you.

      I've been focussing on the lovely memories that we shared and that's also helped with the process.

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  2. In the past few years, my husband and I have had a number of our best friends die. It reminds a person that every good person on this earth counts! There always is a need for people who care.

    :-) Marion

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    1. It hard enough losing family, I couldn't imagine losing my best friends. Thank you for the kind words.

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